Surrender

Surrender, not an easy practice!

Every time I try, something comes up to challenge me—and my resolution to surrender.

But what does surrender really mean? Letting go totally? Or letting go of the stress and side effects of whatever provoked the need to surrender in the first place?

Is it like that lottery-ticket joke: if you want to win, you still have to buy the ticket—and then surrender because what is meant to come will come? Or is it simply letting go of the stress around what you cannot control?

Well, it did not work very well for me this weekend!

I was so looking forward to a holiday weekend with my family—the only one this summer when we were finally all together. We had everything to really enjoy it, and we did! But somehow, one little problem after another came to our attention, and I could not seem to surrender for more than a couple of hours at a time.

Finally, on Sunday morning, we had to cut the weekend short and head back to Miami to get antibiotics for one of the kids.

What can I say? Maybe surrender is a practice precisely because you never really finish learning how to do it.

At least we had a beautiful Shabbat together. And I have to change something.

With a grateful heart and eyes full of tears. All is well. But sometimes, it’s just too much.

It’s not the antibiotics. It’s not the small things. Sometimes they are simply the tip of the iceberg, reminding us to look deeper, adjust, and keep going.

Mothering is a blessing. It’s also not for the faint of heart—and I’m not referring to antibiotics.

Jessica

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